suicidebomb's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Christian... So I'm kind of over the weirdness of the other night. I know I kind of feel uneasy about the friendship, I can totally get over if its unrequited, maybe I'm entering this rp for the wrong reasons. It was a come-on in haste. Looking at porn together is not 'normal'. I don't care how open someone is. It's just asking for trouble. I have that deep down feeling that unless I pull in the reins, things will get messy and the last thing I want is more enemies (for sure). It's time for damage limitation. What happened WAS awkward and the fact he has not owned up since or even tried to rectify the situation does suggest that their is a power dynamic that I don't really like. Not what I'm looking for in a a friendship ore relationship. There is no need to be hasty with this, and I'm quite glad that I reacted in the way that I did. The long break will clear things up and I'm prepared to walk away from a friendship that is not entirely straight up or clear. And if Christian is mixed up about his emotions than he should think more clearly. Because from the moment I've met him, all the signs have suggested he is definitely interested. it's possible when push came to shove his feelings waved. In which case he needs to communicate that. Anyway, I AM in control of this situation. Yeah, friends are scarce in this city, but decent friends or no friends. Honesty is paramount. Not looking for acquaintances. 12:25 p.m. - 2011-07-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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