suicidebomb's Diaryland Diary

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2015-12-05 - 2016 - myterious, aloof and chilled
2015-11-26 - The Truth About Tino (killing the imposter)
2015-11-03 - Tino
2015-11-03 - olof
2015-09-15 - tino
2015-06-01 - Assertive actions.
2015-05-18 - Giving up on Tino
2015-05-12 - Whole milk
2015-05-10 - London Love Affair begins here.
2015-05-10 - The biggest push Phase II
2015-05-06 - The Second Wave
2015-05-06 - The Second Wave
2014-12-10 - Vauxhall observations.
2014-11-12 - Did I fuck things up again?
2014-11-12 - Did I fuck things up again?
2014-03-22 - Ahmed, Andrew, Berlin, Resignation at Ruptly, AJE drama
2014-03-14 - Bora Story
2014-02-11 - Slapping a girl in a club and getting thrown out
2014-01-29 - Case Study: Marc GR
2014-01-23 - Observations as I become boyfriend material
2014-01-18 - Phase two begins
2013-12-16 - The comeback trail starts here...
2013-12-12 - Birth of a Star (214)
2013-12-08 - Evolution as 2014 comes
2013-12-06 - Getting attached and dissaponted
2013-11-27 - Berlin Diary 1
2011-07-10 - Christian...
2011-06-25 - ...Mid-Year Ambitions Update
2011-04-08 - Sean with no surname
2011-01-08 - Ahmed El S - a new frontier.
06/01/2010 - Notes to Self...On Being Drunk
2010-11-18 - A positive comes out of every negative.
2010-11-16 - So what's next in a post-Ahmed world....Well, everything is!
2010-11-04 - Will I Stay Or Will I Go?
2010-10-30 - future on the scales (balancing act)
2010-10-21 - heartbreak hotel - ahmed didn't want me..but he wasnt right for me either.
2010-10-17 - The disappointment that was Ahmed...
2010-09-04 - Doha Update
2010-08-15 - Doha diaries...1
2010-07-05 - Fights and Changes.
2010-06-30 - Waiting patiently...
2010-06-19 - Angry Man Strikes Again...
2010-05-23 - Feeling Depression
2010-05-09 - bad advice and sore heart
2010-04-15 - Deep rooted sadness I can't explain
2010-01-22 - Press TV.
2010-01-03 - Ben worries
2009-09-13 - Growing into someone I respect
2009-09-01 - Bentry...
2009-08-29 - Emo times.
2009-08-11 - ben problems
2009-07-22 - Being rude to mother
2009-07-21 - Missing Mungo...
2009-07-19 - Uncertain times at SCB
2009-05-26 - job situation and meeting jita
2009-05-06 - Platform...
2009-05-06 - Platform...
2009-05-04 - Reflecting over berlin gate..
2009-05-02 - heavy eyes, sad heart
2009-04-20 - Things with Ben.
2009-04-05 - A New Person for 09
2009-03-31 - less friends in the recession.
2009-03-12 - getting paid or laid.
2009-03-12 - Anger outbursts
2009-03-08 - Moving forward.
2009-02-23 - Kobi.
2009-02-22 - Progress Report 22.02.09
2008-11-16 - Stealing.
2008-11-16 - The lover and the thief.
2008-11-14 - Being laid off at Feel.
2008-11-12 - Spend Spend Spend.
2008-11-11 - Failing my driving mocking test.
2008-10-30 - Master of Arts.
2008-10-24 - Quiet times
2008-10-18 - What's next for me?
2008-10-06 - Blue Petered.
2008-10-04 - Baby got a temper.
2008-10-03 - Bad Tempered Pony.
2008-09-27 - Writing down things that have distressed me at the End of the Day To Move On.
2008-09-23 - Affirmative Action.
2008-09-19 - Pastures New
2008-09-15 - Deliriously happy.
2008-09-10 - Dissertation nerves.
2008-09-04 - depressedival
2008-08-28 - The humdrum of the written word.
2008-08-26 - The day I was dumped.
2008-08-10 - petty jealousies, childish quibbles.
2008-08-09 - Crunch Time with Sammy.
2008-08-08 - cancellations due to girlfriends.
2008-07-31 - A return to a old-fashioned good times.
2008-07-26 - petty quibbles and changing peoples.
2008-07-25 - When dating....
2008-07-23 - time to stop pretending
2008-07-19 - Regarding George.
2008-07-18 - Post-date anxiety.
2008-07-16 - Date with Christie.
2008-07-12 - \"Alba means soul!\"
2008-07-03 - Bad Mood
2008-06-23 - Hard Times.
2008-06-22 - The Unhappy Confrontation.
2008-06-22 - Reggae and Roast.
2008-06-09 - Getting more out of Life.
2008-05-31 - So I have crabs.
2008-05-30 - exam nerves
2008-05-28 - simple boy
2008-05-26 - Phileas Fogg's cold feet
2008-05-25 - A daffodil for sam
2008-05-12 - Descent into madness.
2008-05-07 - Problems with mother.
2008-05-05 - The dreaded third wheel.
2008-05-02 - Drunken bitter post ( Revisited)
2008-04-28 - The Falling Man.
2008-04-26 - Sexual Exploits.
2008-04-17 - Comments like this piss me off.
2008-04-16 - Studying hard- it's time to sink or swim.
2008-03-31 - Homosexuality.
2008-03-29 - M�nage � trois
2008-03-16 - Making social faux pas.
2008-03-16 - Making social faux pas.
2008-03-15 - Spacebook MyFace.
2008-03-12 - Unrequited Love.
2008-03-07 - Social Flaking.
2008-02-24 - Annoyed with my bloody self.
2008-02-18 - Being Single.
2008-02-14 - Valentine's day by myself.
2008-02-05 - Toughen up and be a man.
2008-02-02 - Para-para-para-noia.
2008-01-20 - butt of the joke.
2008-01-10 - More annoyance with lana.
2007-12-31 - Annoyance with kobi/lana/general indifference.
2007-12-29 - jealousy of sam and realisation dawns.
2007-12-26 - Crap-mas
2007-12-18 - What a shit tuesday...
2007-12-16 - Franscesca's rejection.
2007-12-10 - George getting on my tits.
2007-12-05 - Here we go again (he's friendless, penniless and utterly hopeless)
2007-11-23 - 56/100..and down goes the gauntlet.
2007-11-21 - A day of surprises.
2007-11-19 - Nothing major.
2007-10-29 - Don't catastrophise or personalise.
2007-10-24 - Improving my mentality
2007-10-18 - Ali
2007-10-11 - Reflections from today's counselling session.
2007-09-15 - Things I would like to buy so I can stop worrying about money and enjoy my life to the fullest.
2007-09-13 - Feel like shit.
2007-08-24 - -
2007-08-02 - Sad midnight headaches.
2007-07-26 - When fed up with a person.
2007-07-26 - -
2007-07-18 - New Diet Regime.
2007-07-16 - brb
2007-05-30 - Reordering a life.
2007-05-17 - Playing on my mind.
2007-05-12 - shit im obsessed.
2007-05-11 - Incredibly emotional.
2007-04-28 - Feeling bleurgh..
2007-04-20 - Time to move on for good.
2007-03-28 - disappointment is hard. (stewarding job)
2007-03-12 - Problems with Rupert.
2007-03-11 - In hindsight...
2007-03-08 - March Update.
2007-02-19 - Ration and reason, sympathies and antipathies
2007-02-15 - Feeling bad.
2007-02-11 - not ideal feelings to be having.
2007-02-10 - Things I want to do.
2007-01-28 - Progress.
2007-01-12 - 2007's manifesto
2007-01-12 - Uncertain about things.
2006-12-24 - Year summation.
2006-11-24 - Would get by with a little help from my friends.
2006-11-22 - Mobile Phone Entries.
2006-11-22 - Myspace/Facebook Holiday.
2006-11-22 - Moving on.
2006-11-17 - Past/present..
2006-11-16 - Dealing with interpersonal issues.
2006-11-11 - Feeling lonesome tonight.
2006-10-25 - Maureen tid bits.
2006-10-22 - final jita update...
2006-10-17 - Becoming a grown up means..
2006-10-16 - Ish-ues
2006-10-10 - Moving to a new place.
2006-10-05 - Things I need..
2006-10-02 - Winter Blues.
2006-09-06 - rejection from vice
2006-08-28 - Notting Hill Car-NO- val..
2006-08-28 - Coming up against a few bricks..
2006-08-25 - improvements take hold.
2006-07-29 - Sociable!
2006-07-28 - Changes to make within yourself.
2006-07-24 - That is that.
2006-07-23 - Adom still getting to me.
2006-07-21 - RE: Jita part 2
2006-07-20 - Personality Changes. Time to grow up.
2006-07-20 - Stressing.
2006-07-14 - Web of illussions, deceipts and lies.
2006-07-12 - Concerned...
2006-07-06 - A few minor changes.
2006-06-18 - Ish and Arafat. O.V.A.H.
2006-06-15 - Ishmael's place for pills.
2006-06-13 - Ish & Co
2006-06-05 - Feeling very down :-(
2006-06-01 - Sleeping with Adam.
2006-05-23 - Had enough of the situation
2006-05-20 - Last two assignments.
2006-05-17 - Medusa Mood
2006-05-17 - jita
2006-05-13 - Updates with people...
2006-05-07 - Image consultant
2006-05-02 - RE: Johnny Panic
2006-04-20 - Moving on again (4 closure) part 10, 874
2006-04-14 - Things to do & buy
2006-04-13 - Going to meet alex at ghetto
2006-04-03 - Alex @ beyond
2006-03-29 - Mattheu at the Ghetto
2006-03-26 - Dear God, please help me :(
2006-03-25 - Character assassination: paranoia & judgemental
2006-03-24 - Progress Report 2- Don't be presumptious
2006-03-19 - On being infatuated.
2006-03-19 - live & learn.
2006-03-17 - progress report on 'dar
2006-03-12 - Things to change.
2006-03-09 - RE: Jita
2006-03-06 - make friends not war.
2006-02-26 - Be happy.
2006-02-20 - Good bye Lenin. Thank fuck for that.
2006-02-02 - thoughts.
2006-02-01 - MP3s
2006-01-28 - Letters of Consolidation.
2006-01-26 - Reflection [1]
2006-01-15 - Auto-pilot
2006-01-08 - O.V.A.H.
2006-01-05 - A New Start.
2006-01-02 - Feeling quite down.
2005-12-31 - Regarding Things.
2005-12-21 - Things I need.
2005-12-11 - Always the lover, never the loved.
2005-12-04 - Frequently depressed because I have nothing to do/
2005-12-02 - -
2005-12-02 - Being in Love
2005-12-01 - Falling for Sammy.
2005-11-16 - +ve change
2005-11-12 - -
2005-11-08 - letter for closure
2005-09-20 - Getting frustrated with delayed text messages.
2005-09-20 - poetry
2005-09-20 - -
2005-09-19 - -
2005-09-18 - Chilling the fuck out.
2005-09-17 - -
2005-09-13 - Paranoia #1
2005-09-09 - positivity.
2005-09-08 - Don't let paranoia rule you.
2005-09-02 - Friends.
2005-09-01 - Enemies.
2005-08-28 - stop being arrogant.
2005-08-21 - Ali part 1
2005-08-18 - Standing by your decisions.
2005-08-15 - On being an adult.
2005-08-13 - Let the world come to you.
2005-08-02 - General frustration and discomfort.
2005-07-02 - The last say on the matter.
2005-06-30 - Positive change.
2005-06-30 - Temper tantrum.
2005-06-30 - Lies, Lies, Lies.
2005-06-28 - Problems.
2005-06-20 - Depressed.
2005-06-19 - Rant :(
2005-06-16 - 30 changes to make (pending)
2005-05-18 - Finally over it.
2005-05-11 - Repulsion and jealousy.
2005-05-09 - Survivor.
2005-05-08 - Today's entry
2005-05-07 - Reflections.
2005-05-03 - The aftermath 2.
2005-05-02 - Day Three update.
2005-05-01 - Third update- Rachael.
2005-05-01 - hunger strikes
2005-05-01 - Still thinking about her.
2005-05-01 - Day Two
2005-04-30 - Boycott (day one) notes.
2005-04-30 - Post-fling
2005-04-27 - Rachael- End of fling
2005-04-27 - Rachael
2005-03-31 - Break down alert.
2005-03-14 - Things to do.
2005-03-12 - From now on.
2005-03-12 - Here I am again.
2005-03-08 - Turn up the bassline.
2005-02-28 - Post colonial thinking.
2005-02-25 - Things to make and do!
2005-02-23 - I must lose my lust!
2005-02-22 - Arafat.
2005-02-03 - -
2005-02-01 - Not worth the effort.
2005-01-27 - Hands clean
2005-01-23 - Goodbye Matt!
2005-02-14 - the text dilemma.
2005-02-09 - Adjectives.
2005-01-04 - Memo from Prague
2004-12-18 - Stuff to do.
2004-12-18 - Closure again.
2004-12-13 - Update.
2004-12-12 - For closure.
2004-12-12 - Manifesto 2005 (part 3)
2004-12-11 - Manifesto 2005 (part 2)
2004-12-09 - Manifesto 2005
2004-12-08 - Inside Jad.
2004-12-06 - Go out more, make something of yourself.
2004-12-05 - The end of the fling.
2004-04-22 - closer
2004-04-21 - Bored of rejection
2004-04-18 - Feeling Blue
2004-03-18 - The revelation
2004-01-08 - fuck shit fuck shit
2003-12-24 - Revision countdown
2003-12-03 - Strange Little Girl Revision School.
2003-11-21 - On being lonely.
2003-11-21 - Morning after pill.
2003-11-21 - -
2003-08-20 - disconnected